May 13, 2004

the quest for romance

A romantic life - love in the afternoon, great food, mind-blowing sex, poetry, opera, art, holding hands, your heart sings and passion drips out of your soul. Some call it unrealistic. I call it the only way to live. Anthing else is, well, settling.

I often wonder why people settle. "He's such a sweet guy," He's a good provider," "We're good friends," She's a good cook," "My biological clock is ticking."

I married a rocker. I was young. Not much compatability there. I loved Sinatra, the opera and poetry, he loved drinking, loud music and hotrods. But it looked good on the outside- the Hollywood Couple. The first half of the marriage was a wild hurricane, the second, a tornado.

So there I was, after the tornado, sitting in my room at night alone, wondering how I got from there to here. Had I changed, ever? No. I was still the romantic, dreaming of love in the afternoon and wanting the passionate, poetic life. I never once thought it wasn't possible, I always knew I would have it and this time I wouldn't settle for anything less.

"Anything less than mad, passionate, extraordinary love is a waste of time.
There are too many mediocre things in life to deal with, and love shouldn't be one of them."
-Frankie, "Dream For An Insomniac."


Posted at May 13, 2004 7:23 AM

Comments

Hi, Toni.

I like your style! "Life after God" is one of my favorite books and Pablo
Neruda is scrumptiou. Knowing we share some favorites, I'll definitely be
checking out "God-Shaped Hole."

Thanks for your suggestions. I hope you're doing wonderfully well. I miss
reading your words, but I respect your need for a little peace and quiet.

xo,
christine


Posted by: christine at May 14, 2004 10:14 AM

OMG! HI!!! It's so good to hear from you! Hope you have been doing
well, I still check in at o2bee about once a week to see if you are
back yet. :-) Hope you are back for good, I missed your writing.

Gesikah


Posted by: Gesikah at May 14, 2004 10:15 AM

i think i can speak for everybody when i say we've fucking missed you, toni. i hope this time is the last. welcome back.


Posted by: nozlee at May 14, 2004 1:01 PM

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