I don't know when but a day is gonna come when there won't be a moon and there won't be a sun.
I'm trying very hard these days to stay in the moment since the present moment is all we have. To obsess over the future, death, the what-ifs is so ridiculous. To spend your life with your brain somewhere else, how senseless. A friend told me the other day that death is such an important part of life, for if we didn't die, nothing would have any meaning. A sunset would have no meaning, because we would have endless sunsets. The knowledge that our days will someday come to an end, makes everything meaningful.
I tend to let my mind race. When I'm watching television, or working on my thesis, or driving, or doing most anything, my mind is somewhere else. I'm thinking about all the things I have to do - all the things in the next minute, or day, or week, or month, but reality tells me that the only thing I have is today.
From "Life After God," by Douglas Coupland:
"My mind then wandered. I thought of this: I thought how every day each of us experiences a few moments that have just a bit more resonance that other moments - we hear a word that sticks in our mind - or maybe we have a small experience that pulls us out of ourselves, if only briefly - we share a hotel elevator with a bride in her veils, say, or a stranger gives us a piece of bread to feed to the mallard ducks in the lagoon; a small child starts a conversation with us in a Dairy Queen - or we have an episode like the one that I had with the M & M cars back at the husky station.
And if we were to collect these small moments in a notebook and save them over a period of months we would see certain trends emerge that have been trying to speak through us. We would realize that we have been having another life altogether, one we didn't even know was going on inside us. And maybe this other life is more important than the one we think of as being real - this clumsy day-to-day world of furniture and noise and metal. So just maybe it is these small silent moments which are the true story-making events of our lives."
Posted at October 6, 2003 8:35 PM
i loved that. thank you so much.
Posted by: anna at October 6, 2003 10:19 PM